One more time

I once feel hurt because of you.

Why not hurt me one more time?

Shoot me here right on my heart so I would die on the moment.

Please.

Thank you.

Exile

Exile

(n.)

1. expulsion from one's native land by authoritative decree.

2. the fact or state of such expulsion

5. anyone separated from his or her country or home voluntarily or by force of circumstance.

I exile myself to this country 3 years ago with the intention to set myself free from you, to make myself strong. I did set myself free from you, but I didn't know this exile would get me into another involvement.

And I am still not strong.

This world is so big. Maybe it is about the time to put myself to another exile.

搬家

來這裡以後，兩個多月，我就搬了。

這次搬家沒有什麼特別的感覺。只是覺得東西很多，很煩。整理東西的時候朋友問我這、那是哪來的，她問的東西剛巧都是別人送的。

別人送的，我捨不得扔，就這樣一路跟著我。

我想，我的東西能從兩個行李箱增加到兩車不是沒有原因的吧。酒呢，學生送的禮物；鍋子呢，朋友的媽媽送的；衣架呢，以前認識的日本朋友回國前給我的...

晚上在新住的地方整理東西，也許是太累了，開始有點情緒化起來...

我真的很想回去，可是我不敢，但也不知道在不敢什麼。

我真的很想放棄，可是我不敢，但也不知道在不敢什麼。

這兩車的東西... 以後要回台灣時該怎麼辦呢?

Night time

I like night time better than day time.

It is quiet,

And all the sadness, loneliness, weakness, and sin seem more reasonable, acceptable, or compatible when dark fall.